Saturday, March 31, 2018

Be Your Best Self

When were you, your best self?  Was it sometime in the past, is it in the present, or do you look forward being better everyday hereafter?   I love this time of year, it reminds me of being a kid.  

When I was a kid I lived in a rural area where they burned the ditches to clean them out so irrigation water could flow freely.  Now when I walk out and smell the same aroma it takes me right back to when I was seven years old.  I look back now and I remember thinking life was pretty great.  I was a quiet kid, even though people who know me now can hardly believe it.  I tried hard everyday to be good and listen to my parents.  You know maybe that was when I was my best self.  

Growing up, I felt the emotional bumps and bruises most people did.  I hated jr. high school, and high school wasn't that much better. I know for sure that wasn't when I was my best self.  I didn't have many friends, I didn't have great grades, my family wasn't really close.  I felt alone, a lot.  Things could have been much better.  

After high school is when I had my first boyfriend, if that's what you could call him.  He was a controlling young man who never felt I was good enough for him.  So no, I really don't think that was my best time.  

I never went to college which I have always regretted.  But  I did use that time to improve myself and hopefully become a better person.  After getting married and raising a family I look back and wonder are my best years behind me?  I always want to be my best self.  I think the trick is to learn from the past and make a bright future.  

Until next time